Opening a window
I need to breathe again.
We probably all go through this phase in our lives and now it’s my turn. I need change. After more than 10 years in the aerospace industry as a software developer, this is not for me anymore (I hope no one from my company sees this yet. If you do, please keep it secret!).
It’s a strange feeling. I’m objectively not in a bad place. The salary is good. The pressure is low. The people are nice. But it still feels like I’m in a bad place. During the week, every night it’s difficult to sleep and every morning it’s difficult to get out of bed. I’m stressed, anxious and nervous. During the weekends and holidays, all of this goes away.
I feel trapped. Having to go to the same place at the same time every day. Executing someone else’s project. Asking for holidays. Justifying why I need a raise. It’s unmotivating to get the same pay no matter what I do. It’s frustrating not to be able to imagine and implement my own projects. I’ll leave aside for today what I think about company culture in general, otherwise I’ll spend the whole night on this.
What I need is to stop selling my time for someone else’s dreams. I want to spend that time thinking about my own ideas. Making things I love, that will be useful to people. I want to be able to tell someone: here, take a look, I made this, I think you’ll like it.
For a long time I’ve been very interested in everything related to the Apple ecosystem and the web. All the possibilities are thrilling. You can imagine almost anything and make it happen. So that’s why I’m here: to start this new chapter of my life. I don’t know if I’m more scared or excited but I enjoy both feelings. Maybe what I enjoy even more is starting from scratch again. I’m learning how to develop apps for Apple platforms and how to build a website. Being a beginner again is liberating.
This website is now a place for me to share my journey with you and to show you what I make. If you want, you can also subscribe to my newsletter. I’d like to use it to send you articles, ideas and discoveries I stumble upon and which I’d hate to keep to myself.
Thank you, whoever you are, for reading. It probably helps me more than it helps you, but I still hope you find something that resonates with you. And don’t be a stranger, you can write to me about anything, I’ll be happy to read you too.
See you next time.
P.S. Try to open a window from time to time.